I've found that I'm someone who's never completely satisfied with anything - always yearning for something new, something more challenging. Some way to prove myself, I guess.

I never really thought why it was up until today. The short, easy answer would probably be that I'm just a perfectionist, but that's just not true. As I've ponder back and forth through the endless possible conclusions, they all lead back to control. 

Being someone that's lived with anxiety, depression and all sorts of different MI throughout the past 7 years, control is one of the things that's been taken from me. And I feel like with my blog, that was finally given back to me. The design, the name, the posts, everything that came with The Ugly Girls Club was all down to only me

Along the way, I feel I got lost. With the numerous name changes, the different themes, feeling pressured to put out content, etc. It just wasn't really the same anymore. Yesterday was definitely my tipping point, though, that nagging feeling of needing a change was back full force. The thought of even just deleting my blog as a whole crossed my mind. While these thoughts were crossing my mind, one of my friends told me that maybe I should just wait it out, see how I feel in a week and just go from there. That's obviously the more logical thing to do, but I woke up today feel the same way I did last night, even not even more determined. 

I did decide against deleting my blog because that's honestly just crazy talk. I don't think I could ever do that, blogging is my happy place and it's not something I want to give up anytime soon. I do, though, plan on making some big changes. Initially, I was just going to delete all my posts and start on a clean slate, but as cringey as some of them are, they've got me to where I am now and it just reminds me of the progress I've made; both in my personal life and content wise. I couldn't resist reverting some to draft, but I've kept up the ones that seem to be some of your favorites and some of the ones that just mean a lot to me. 

When you came to read this post, it was pretty obvious that my layout and set up has change from the way it was - I'm not entirely sure if I'm going to keep it this way or change it to something different. But for now, this is the way it's going to be. Throughout the week I'll be tweaking it, so don't be surprised if you come back tomorrow and you see something different. 

To sum this post up, I just really want to make my blog something I'm proud of again. I want to get back to a point where it was fun for me to post and I didn't get anxiety over the fact that I hadn't posted anything in a few days. I want to put out quality content and not just something I half-assed just to get a post out. This is most definitely still staying a lifestyle, fashion/beauty and mental health based blog, but from here on out I'm back on my A-game. 

I hope you guys are excited as I am! I'll talk to you guys in my next post. 

Lots and lots of love, 
Kristina xxx 


I've never been one to wear lipstick, not because I wasn't a fan, more because of insecurity issues. I felt it just didn't suit my lip shape, making my already big lips look even bigger. I'm not really sure why I fretted about it so much - hell, people now a days are over drawing their lips just to have a pair like mine! I feel should be thankful I was born with a full pair of lips.


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